My beliefs and values are grounded in my faith and my faith is built on hope. So when I was not my typical optimistic hopeful self last week, I was pretty hard to live with. I didn't realize it at the time, but seeing progress and forward movement made me dread returning to an entrenched bureacracy. And I failed to bury it to get the work done. I spoke words out of turn, worried a few people and walked around angry with myself. I was simmering all week.
And then, this morning I went to my church and Daniel with his beautiful voice sang, LLM "Love Lifted Me", a song I grew up with. It touched me to my core and filled me with hope and a good attitude. Got some disturbing news-twice-and didn't get shaken. Re-occuring backpain is back--but got some brief therapy and I'm set for the week.
So when folks look at me sideways this week, and fires start to pop up all over, I'll replace the negative thoughts with positives and quietly hum that sweet old hymn.
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You reminds me of my mom. She is always so bright and cheery, so when she is in a bad mood, which is so rarely, our family doesn't know how to act. I remember her telling me, why it is that you can be in a bad mood, and be snapping, but if I do it, everyone wonders what is wrong with me. You are a lot like my mom, our rock, and we rely on that. We also have to understand that you are human, just like the rest of us, and have every right to crumble once in a while.
ReplyDeletei do not read often- blogs that is- but when i do, i go all the way.....i cant stop. so i started with yours from the top...and moved my way down - unusual, but it worked for me...
ReplyDeletei was deeply moved by this particular post and the one about your daughter being your wisest investment...to be honest, after i read that, i felt a sense of calmness take over b/c i am currently dealing with some personal issues which have made me hard to live with at these days....
reading your thoughts brings clarity to my own.....
as heather stated above...we are all human...you are allowed to crack once in a while despite that it does not feel good......
Since June I have been so busy with work, from Dyslexia to the ECH Summer Symposium to the August frenzy and honestly, all the stress have resulted in a major crimp on my family. I would easily overreact to my kids, especially to my nutty husband but surprisingly everyone put up with me. I feel embarrassed but it was a learning experience --- my kids don’t really worry about monumental concerns, and this got me thinking… maybe if I were to become more like them, my concerns might not be so monumental.
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